Bicara Kehidupan

 

Source: Doc. pribadi

Semakin menjalani hari demi hari, sepahamnya kita amat mengetahui bahwa dalam hidup ini lelah adalah sesuatu yang pasti. Masalah demi masalah berhasil kita jalani dengan solusi yang kita ketahui, tetapi bukan berarti ia berhenti. Masalah hanya berganti.

Seseorang pernah menulis dalam blognya, "Saya punya seni tersendiri dalam menikmatinya. Ketika sebuah masalah datang, entah bagaimana saya selalu membandingkan masalah hari itu dengan masalah hari kemarin atau sebelumnya.

Jika hari ini masalah yang saya dapat saya rasa lebih ringan dari hari kemarin, maka harusnya hari ini saya mampu menghadapi, memecahkan dan melewatinya.

Namun, andaikan masalah yang hari ini saya rasa yang paling berat daripada masalah-masalah kemarin, maka saya menganggap hari itu 'level kemampuan menghadapi masalah saya' naik."

Di sisi lain juga, saya sering mengafirmasi pada diri sendiri, "Aku punya Allah yang menciptakanku, kalau nanti aku lelah maka Allah juga yg akan menguatkanku.."

Nervous

The train will depart at 3:26 p.m.

And I'm nervous.

I thought I was nervous because the first time I was riding a train between provinces after the last many years ago. I thought I was nervous because I would attend a community friend's old meeting reunion. I thought I was nervous about leaving college and not taking the psychoanalysis class that I was very curious about.

I thought I didn't want to tell where I was, only one time I felt wan to tell about where I was through my social media. Until the first morning I arrived, my phone ringing, "Where are you? Are you in Bogor? "

The answer to all my nervous that I feel might be;

Because I am so sensitive to Bogor.

//Yogyakarta, November 2018//

#4 The Grave of Fireflies

At night you went to dorm of your friend. She cooks soup meat and invite for dinner with her. This sweet thing seems to be not much different from dinner with someone that you love. At dinner, you also share many stories. You talk about an episode in the movie Sherlock Holmes series. It is about a woman's ghostly riddles by using wedding gown.

Because you successfully to make her feel fear, so that night she sleep in your kost, before it you guys are watching a film that was washed away, The Grave of the Fireflies. This movie is sad but you failed to cry and you say on your friend, "why couldn't I cry watching this sad film?" five minutes pass, then your tears can't stop. Labile, but ultimately this film successfully to make you cry until “sesenggukan” ya know.